The Quick Fix

Do quick fixes ever solve anything? Quick fixes can be patches we put on our flat tires, hoping they can suffice till we reach our destination. Quick fixes, are known as the sweets that we slip into our mouths when we're craving something so much bigger. Quick fixes can be fun and feel satisfying, even if only for a few moments of sweet surrender. After all they're only really available to feed a temporary craving, in my case a craving of the heart.

I've had quite a few quick fixes in the past three weeks, new guys, as well old guys from past blogs. I went out with Steven, a guy who wore a little crucifix around his neck that bothered me when we kissed. I had to desensitize, and get over it...The true definition of a quick fix, if I truly wanted to satisfy my appetite. I wanted to enjoy the moment, even though a few moments before he had mentioned he was going to Church early the next day. He said he needed to go pray before volunteering for a bake sale..umm..yeah. "Forgive me Father, for I have kissed a Jewish girl."

My ph-lakey pharmacist resurfaced from the blog "I need to get me some Pharmacist"...Rose from the ashes like a ph-laky phoenix. We met up in a parking lot at 3am, to "catch up"...Don't ask, I just happened to be out in Laguna, at an Ungodly hour. He kissed me a few hours later, after catching up on a whole years worth of information. Yes, it had been more than a year since we had seen each other last. Now let me tell you in all my years in college I had never pulled an all nighter, and yet here I was in my adult life pulling one. Needless to say the next day was unbearable, and I needed to sleep it out. Oh the gift of the quick fix just kept on giving.

Jonah, my new friend from Kentucky decided to change his mind for half a minute and kissed me for no reason. Well no reason other than the fact he felt like it. I brought him over to the Moishe House to meet people, and maybe make some friends. We later had a moment, I went with it of course, but felt nothing. Now where on earth did I leave those feelings? Must have left them where I left my car keys..Let me know if you find those, ok?

I went out to "Landmark" with some friends on a Saturday night, a really great place to go out in Newport. An extremely tall good looking man started to hit on me...I later discovered he was the younger brother of the guy I kissed last year at a Halloween party when I was Red Riding-hood. He had a brief cameo in the blog "Romancing Halloween." Oh the small world we live in! He tried to entice me to come over and "play" with him. I decided to tease him via text, but in the end there was NO way I wanted to be another notch on this guys belt. If it had to happen, he'd be a notch on mine.

I went to my friend Julies' for a holiday get together, and met her gorgeous room mate from Germany, Franz. We caught each others eye, exchanged numbers, text flirted all night. Before I knew it he was in my car Thanksgiving night kissing me for 2 hours, till I needed to end it. Franz and I are still flirting at this time...But I predict it won't be long till our fling fades.

Three weeks until Australia and James is excited...So am I, but only for the trip. James is part of the vacation, and vacations are temporary. Definition of temporary: adj. Lasting, used, serving, or enjoyed for a limited time. Alas, all good things must come to an end. Oh quick fixes, why do you only satisfy for such a short period of time? You inflate my ego, and deflate it all too soon. You love me, and then leave me before I can blink. Such is the life of the Datist who seems to have no interest in anything unless it leads to nowhere.

Yet, Something has sparked inside of me. I suddenly feel more attractive and confident than I've ever felt in my lifetime...Feeling like I've taken a million steps back, only to take a million and one forward...which is still one step forward in the right direction.

"The elevator to success is out of order. You'll have to use the stairs...one step at a time."
~Joe Girard